Mark Dudlik


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In an effort to squeeze every last drop of productivity from the 18-20 hours I am awake each day, I’ve decided to start a project that is impossible for me to finish.

Maybe I’m starting to feel old. I just turned 28. 30 is looming close. I realize that’s not old by most standards, but it feels like a milestone I’d rather not reach. Either way, I’m realizing I’m not producing enough work. I have lots of initiatives and projects, but often as a result of sacrificing time for the design & writing work I love to do.

So, I am going to try and do 28 things, 28 times, in my 28th year. 28×28. I realize that is 784 possible things. That’s more than 2 things per day. Some may overlap and I’m guessing most won’t even happen. Never-the-less, here is my attempt to do 28 things 28 times. And I have to be happy with all of them, I can’t just phone them in. Which likely means I’ll do all of these 3 times. We’ll see.

28×28

1. Make 28 screen prints
2. Read & review 28 books
3. Design on 28 vinyl toys
4. Make 28 books
5. Make 28 tops
6. Make 28 characters
7. Make 28 toy prototypes
8. 28 pieces of public design
9. Make a 28 page magazine
10. Take 28 photographs & print them
11. Write 28 short stories
12. Write 28 blog or magazine articles
13. Make 28 movies that are 28 seconds long
14. Make 28 wood/cardboard based somethings
15. Make 28 button designs
16. Draw 28 characters of an alphabet
17. Draw 28 new pandas
18. Write 28 design history articles
19. Make 28 life icons/tear sheet
20. Make 28 event posters
21. Make 28 3D Models
22. Make 28 self-logos
23. Make 28 quote posters
24. Paint 28 paintings
25. Make 28 patterns
26. Make 28 t-shirt designs
27. Paint on 28 objects
28. Put all this shit in a book, make 28 copies.

There, now its on the internet, which means I’m accountable to finish these all. 51 weeks til I’m 29.

Here we go…

Definitions don’t exist

Spoken word is often thought of as the most sincere, natural and therefore the most “real” method of communication between people. Plato, Saussure, Levi-Strauss and others have all denounced the written word, and lamented speech as the actuator of pure meaning, often arguing that speech is the representation of mental thought, of experience, and of cultural and self realism. Saussure for instance points to the fact that symbols (alphabets) can never be attributed directly to what they signify, and because of this speech, sound and the interaction of talking, is more pure, more direct. Jacque Derrida however argues that these same ideas could be attributed to text, that there is no universality in anything, and therefore speech is just as natural and direct as writing. Language, both written and spoken is defined through subjective interpretation, deconstruction and binary opposites.

Deconstruction is hard to define, because one of its main goals is that of proving nothing has any real definition. Niall Lucy has said

While in a sense it is impossibly difficult to define, the impossibility has less to do with the adoption of a position of the assertion of a choice on deconstruction’s part than with the impossibility of every ‘is’ as such. Deconstruction begins, as it were, from a refusal of the authority or determining power of every ‘is’, or simply from a refusal of authority in general.

Seeing the obvious mental gymnastics needed to head down that path of discussion, its better to explore what deconstruction does with its undefinability: Deconstruction exposes the dualistic hierarchies of language, both spoken and written, by examining its parts and then distorting and adjusting the meanings, often showing that they can mean the exact opposite of that which was originally perceived.

Deconstruction’s analysis of language is done with various methods, the most common and effective of which is that of binary opposites in context. Inside-outside relationships, and the idea that everything can be interpreted in opposition to itself, is the basis of these binary opposites. The main example is that of Plato’s pharmakon. He argued that its meaning could only be expressed vocally, because it can mean poison and cure at the same time, the context of it in speech being more obvious than in the written language. Derrida argued that it was just as transitionally meaningful in speech as writing, but that writing allowed for the relationship of the word to its context to play a greater, more transparent role, while still being both poison and cure to itself. This example helps show the fluidity of speech and writing, the lack of static meaning and the interpretive possibilities of language in the aspects of personal definitions.

One point Derrida makes often is the relation time has with an interpretation of language. It’s often said that time, or the idea of ‘now’ is the primary factor in the dissemination of meaning from speech. The meaning of the words are more obvious in the instant relationships with speech, as opposed to the static and unchanging relationship with a written language. This of course, was broken down by Derrida, where he presents and explores the idea that time, in and of itself, is impossible. That there is no ‘now’, time is irreducible to any instant, and that as soon as ‘now’ has existed, another ‘now’ has taken its place, with just as much non-existence as its predecessor. The static nature of writing is as unreal, unstatic as speech, and yet more so accessible because of its unchanging nature. Speech and text can not be more instant than each other, because the idea of instantaneousness exists only in perception, with time being irreducible to individual moments, and therefore cannot be more ‘real’ based on time, as both exist in a vacuum of impossibly unmeasurable non-existence.

This idea of the impossibility of experiencing ‘now’ applies to a personal experience as well. The exploration of self falls into a spatial flux, in that its impossible to think of oneself as you exist now, without considering and being affected by the self of the past. This now being based on before makes it so now is nothing but a reflection of that which already exists, creating a fluctuation of time that never presents itself with a singular instant.

So looking at this idea of language and self-defining it through various means, I will extend (and alter a bit) my previous post’s point about design. When does design mean Visual Communication, Industrial Design and when does it mean ‘creativity’ or ‘engineering’. Or does it always mean all of those things at all times?

While ‘design’ can mean anything and everything, it is also fundamentally important for conversation that it mean something in context. The context for those around me is that ‘design’ apparently is a text book definition, regardless of the importance of claiming the word for its greater purposes of Design. So, maybe that’s just it? Maybe we say Design vs design. It’s been proposed before (big d design, as its referred to within academia) and I think that can be the goal we strive for. Design is not design.

Confidence breeds complacency

Its been a little over a month since Phoenix Design Week and the glow has faded and true perspective has started to kick in.

The event was a success, sure. Tons of people did an amazing amount of work to put on a really beautifully orchestrated event. Attendance exceeded expectations. And, except for a few hiccups, everyone seemed to have enjoyed themselves, gotten something valuable out of the event, and made new connections and friends along the way. We were really able to raise some awareness for the design community in Phoenix. We did A LOT of good.

It’d be easy to be satisfied and revel in the success of the week. From what people have been telling me, it was a really amazing first year event, and worthy of pride. I completely agree.

but…

There’s so much more to do! So much more to accomplish.

We’re starting to use the momentum for great things, with things like Sprawl, the year-long effort of Phoenix Design Week (info coming soon), and new clubs starting like Motion Graphics Phoenix. The community, (twitter hash #phxdc), is now connected like never before, but this is not the time for complacency, not the time to be satisfied.

This is how I treat almost everything I do. People have tried to accuse me of having an ego after Design Week, as if one tiny blip of an event will undo years of self-hating. Not true. All its done is given me an energy to push forward with plans to improve this city. Its given me a team of amazing people to work with towards similar ends: Better design for Phoenix, and a better Phoenix for design.

So, I would say to anyone doing successful things: Get over it. Keep going, you are never close to being done or reaching your goals. Be like me and dislike yourself and dislike everything you do the second it’s over, and wake up feeling the need to do something better than before, better than yesterday, better than you think you can be.

Hating yourself is the new pride.

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